Friends

Tuesday, June 23
CD20

Just hope this cycle isn't going to be abother long one, no signs of anything happening though...
Quiet day at work, lots of people on holidays but lots of fiddly, time-consuming things to do, so it felt good to get them all finished!
Had a long lunch with S at the People's Palace, we sat in the sun afterwards. She's sweet, I haven't really given her a chance before - she started at a bad time - I'll need to make an effort! It was very hard to drag ourselves back to work!
Mailed M, hope to meet up with her before our holidays. We don't meet often, but it gives us more to catch up on. The last couple of times have been sober affairs, she is so much more fun when there is alcohol involved...

Ill...

Monday, June 22
CD19
Feeling lousy, sore throat, stuffy nose... Early to bed I think, at least I don't feel like eating too much!

Fathers' Day...

Sunday, June 21
CD18
Very early morning with Mr T - "it's light in my room mummy, I'm hungry!" It was so early the cartoons weren't even on! Do I really want to do this again...?
Park again, nice walk about. Need to get some decent exercise this week though.

Not a good start

Saturday, June 20
CD17
Well, G decided not to go out so I didn’t do the DVD but I did the menu planning and shopping list and got an early night!
Today, took T to the park and had a run about so got some exercise, visited family too so a nice day all round.
Indian takeaway for dinner and chocolates – not a good night!

Back on the Rollercoaster - sort of...

Friday, June 19
CD16

I have decided – drumroll please… - we have to do the frozen embryo transfer. I was scared and hesitant, but there is no option really, it has to be done. Yes, the process is time-consuming, unpleasant and stressful, but really I have no option. I want another baby, I do, I really do. And I want it more than I want not to be hurt any more.

If it doesn’t work or if it does and something goes wrong later, none of that will be worse than having never tried at all. I don’t ever want to look back and think “I should have done that”. I have to know that I did everything I could, and if it doesn’t work out then I’ll deal with that at the time.

So I have to call the clinic and find out what to do, I can’t remember the whole process and I think they shut for two weeks in July. I also need to start eating healthier, cut down the wine and start exercising more. Simples…! (I love that meerkat!)

I will detail it all here and hopefully that will be an incentive to stick to it. I’m not happy with my size now anyway, so it’s not going to do any harm and if the FET doesn’t work I should look and feel better afterwards - which will help with Plan B (the natural approach!)

I’ve a quiet day at work & hoping to go home early since I worked on Wednesday, which is usually one of my days off. I’m in myself tonight so I can plan menus for next week, write a healthy shopping list and have a go at the “Davina – Super Body Workout” DVD. Wish me luck!

On another note – I have to stop watching CJ videos on YouTube – the addiction is getting out of hand… Much better to get an early night and get some practice in, iykwim! Think G got a nice surprise last night!