Back on the Rollercoaster - sort of...

Friday, June 19
CD16

I have decided – drumroll please… - we have to do the frozen embryo transfer. I was scared and hesitant, but there is no option really, it has to be done. Yes, the process is time-consuming, unpleasant and stressful, but really I have no option. I want another baby, I do, I really do. And I want it more than I want not to be hurt any more.

If it doesn’t work or if it does and something goes wrong later, none of that will be worse than having never tried at all. I don’t ever want to look back and think “I should have done that”. I have to know that I did everything I could, and if it doesn’t work out then I’ll deal with that at the time.

So I have to call the clinic and find out what to do, I can’t remember the whole process and I think they shut for two weeks in July. I also need to start eating healthier, cut down the wine and start exercising more. Simples…! (I love that meerkat!)

I will detail it all here and hopefully that will be an incentive to stick to it. I’m not happy with my size now anyway, so it’s not going to do any harm and if the FET doesn’t work I should look and feel better afterwards - which will help with Plan B (the natural approach!)

I’ve a quiet day at work & hoping to go home early since I worked on Wednesday, which is usually one of my days off. I’m in myself tonight so I can plan menus for next week, write a healthy shopping list and have a go at the “Davina – Super Body Workout” DVD. Wish me luck!

On another note – I have to stop watching CJ videos on YouTube – the addiction is getting out of hand… Much better to get an early night and get some practice in, iykwim! Think G got a nice surprise last night!